For a very long time now i have been on a personal quest of peace.
When you almost absolutely lose everything, you understand what is not important. To me what is especially not important is your opinion of me. I understand that you are entitled to think what you will. It is your right. No matter how outrageously wrong, i have been working on not correcting any assumption made of me unless it involves me taking credit for something i did not do. It is really HARD, because you can see it in peoples faces sometimes when they jump to a conclusion. I can not validate or defend my behaviour, there is no need to. I dont get to make your choices for you.

I tried every second of every day.....
to try harder,
To do more,
learn something,
be kind,
center myself,
to be honest to myself, with myself, for myself,
To be authentic
to listen
to breathe, to calm down
to believe in myself
to trust myself
to not expect perfection from myself or others

And in trying to do all of this at once i was harsh and unyeilding, unforgiving to the failure that was me. Quite by accident i stumbled upon a book that taught me that i do not know how to love.
And love, cures all. Corney as it seems, it does.
If i love everything i am given
Kindness,
opourtunities to grow
inner peace
confidence
and acceptance.
And to me that is all that matters, all that should matter.

But it is still hard when i see someone get it wrong about me.

Thanks for listening